english925

Dancing, for No UnGodly reason do I find myself having the privledge to go out and dance much and its been like this for years now . My late 20s I have been doing anything but...I couldn't even dance at Pagan Unity. What if more of an inclusiveness , for goths interested in dance existed, but a hip hop class is though, right...and so painfully I recluse. Whether in an educational setting or an lgbt setting hip hop dance is the norm :/


MENTAL HEALTH

I used to really love kissin as a bi-teen, but the battle of homophobia has been torture, for as long as I can think back. Could the asexual consideration through most of my 20s have anything to do with classism? What gay scene is biphobic in the first place?

Mental abuse from bi's with str8 priveldge- see community unheard bandwagon MEANwhile an awareness of seeker(s) in the spiritual psychiatric field LIKE ME, emotionally disabled, thus encourage a honest less abusive mental health system! Timing boo hiss! Gay in the early 70s as a mental disorder was over, but not for me-why you evil fucks???

Been sitting in Gianna's for over a half over now
using the wireless

I honestly feel great listening to this goddess chant that just played on darker side of pagan
as it was used in a ritual I attended across the street, but on this street.

I put a lot of energy into moving and lost a lot of little things on the journey.
Things that I have let go of are one thing, but unplanned losses suck.

Breathe. The chinese medicine that I drank the last of today has put me in a very euphoric state of mind.

May everyone feel blessed today.

So may it be.

Well, if you wanna know
Ima tell ya
I got tested for hiv and all stds and I came back totally negative
so that's really good
all that playing safe and using condoms seems to work for me
Eventhough I don't play around much at all I still get tested every six months.

1.) Check out www.gaywork.org (join, upload res,
2.) view it's very small collection of jobs under customer service- find the very San Franciscan, "Persons of color, women and transgender individuals strongly encouraged to apply." Humorously place this slogan on my myspace profile as a headline, heheh.
3.) check out www.equalityproject.org

more 2 come

On one hand I'm talking about how perhaps I could be
nicer in life
On the other hand I'm talking about how I've suffered such
neglect in life
Yet, what is inbetween? How nice I treat the GODS And GODDESSES
How about how I get treated on my birthday!

Last night I layed down and had to process so much damn rage
I worked with a photographer yesterday that totally threw my energy off wack

I worked with some very nice students from the Netherlands
the other day on Broderick St. in the Haight
that took pics of me wearing various stuff, but they were cool

yesterday was just hell

today, I should finally make it to my psychiatric evaluation
I hope that I can start taking more medications- lots more
because otherwise I'm not going to be nice to anyone

I just stopped in the place that offers free storage, for the homeless, but it's just letting people put stuff in one big room
and I can't see letting me stuff just get stolen like that.

It's taken long enough (since last August when I became homeless again) to go stay in a homeless shelter, so I'm going to have to have to keep paying, for a storage unit

I'm doing a modeling gig tomorrow, so right there I'll have the money to pay for that

I have bed rest now at the shelter which means that I can sleep in, but the people there are painfully obnoxious to be around.

I am having a real hard time being around all those smokers and just ignoring them, but I'm doing a real good job
I haven't flipped out on anyone at all. I got more meds too.

I attended a housing workshop today. I spoke with the man running it. I told him that I took a City College course last year, "Issues on Disabilities" that provided me with a list of resources. I mentioned how I have emailed a plethora of places, but how I've been utterly ignored. I picked up some information the other day about mental health agencies. I don't deserve to be fucking ignored the way I am.

3/29/07 After speaking to Chris & James on aim and getting quite the emotional uproar from people on myspace- I took this picture of the Center

	downtown 3.27.07 downtown San Francisco
	Center The infamous GLBT center that when first opened I was facilitating a group about soulmates/twin souls at- involved with a queer writing group- years later in 04 was speaking up about quitting smoking- and these days drink coffee and hang out at

Does cat pee ever come off of things? I'm quite disturbed by the animal mess on my possessions, as well as the ones that I've lost on this trip, but today I was just thinking of the good things that I gave away. For example Furthur Down the Rabbit Hole that I gave to Linnea & Magical Personality that I gave to Noah. Those are good presents.

So anyways, I have had some peace in the past twenty-four hours. I'm about to lay back down and try and maintain this peaceful energetic convergence, so that it may embrace a distinct aesthetic assiduity, for returning to San Francisco.

How do you get to the airport from around here anyways? Blarg!